I'm really worried about a change in my life circumstances that I can't control.
We're currently going through a restructure at work where my job is at risk.
I am very fortunate that I can work from home for two days a week.
I've worked there for 11 years and feel that I have built up a bit of grace. If daycare drop off takes 20 minutes because we are trying to avoid triggers and I am slightly late for work, my amazing team don't bat an eyelid.
They know what I am dealing with and how hard I am trying. My boss is equally supportive.
They all understand that George has issues and that I try to have a day between daycare if possible (if I have meetings then he does need to go in consecutive days).
Recently when George had canine cough, my wonderful boss and team absolutely understood that not only was it out of my control, but that I needed to stay at home with him.
I am very aware of how fortunate I am.
More distant colleagues don't always understand if I can't come to the office. I just say that he has other issues that means he can't be left alone.
I feel like they were waiting for further information. It's hard because people don't really get it that you can't just leave your dog at home.
My boss and my team understand though and they are the important ones.
So I'm not just worried about losing my job - I'm really worried about my complicated circumstances. People aren't always understanding about dog anxiety.
It wouldn't be good for George to be in daycare more than 3 days a week. Although perhaps we could tolerate it for the short term.
If it weren't for my situation with George, I think I would have more choices.
But the understanding and compassion I currently get from my boss and my team (which I am immensely grateful for) will be difficult to replace.